Blue light blog

gender issue

bluelightblog — Thu, 04 Aug 2011 14:39:02 +0000

I haven’t posted in awhile due to having to think about some things. I have concluded that it’s about how I feel. Not how society, colleagues, peers, etc think about me. At first I thought that maybe it was a mental disorder/low self esteem thing. I tried medications, counseling, etc. I feel I am no closer and yet i feel I’ve made progress. I know that both genders have positives and negatives. I feel at this moment like a failure as a man. I feel trapped in by societys values.

I need to scrap them and come to my own conclusions. I’m going to make an appt to see my endo sometime in the summer. Right now i’m taking a theater class where we create our own characters and create a play around those characters. I’ll think I’ll create the character of a woman, stong, confident, passionate. I’m tired of denying myself, tired of feeling used up inside. I’m going to take it slow and keep working through this. I remember a freind of mine was saying “you don’t want xena, you want to BE xena” Maybe he was right. I’m goingto keep searching now….

Diane

bluelightblog — Tue, 09 Oct 2007 07:52:40 +0000

I was told, when a friend gave this recipe to me, that it is the big gun,
used when other cleanses fail by her M.D.. I think people respond
differently to varying cleanse recipes. I know people who claim grapefruit
juice will not work for them, whereas, lemon juice will, etc., etc.

Hi All

bluelightblog — Mon, 08 Oct 2007 23:52:53 +0000

Regarding use of olive oil, I was just told that the liver can be cleaned
out over a longer period of time without either olive oil or herbs and
simply the daily use of water with fresh lemon juice squeezed into it as an
ongoing flush, in conjunction with colonics at least twice a week. The
lemon juice acts as the solvent in the liver/gallbladder and the colonics
are to make sure the dissolved gunk is getting all the way out of the
system rathr than reabsorbed. Enemas don’t hurt anything, either, on a
regular basis, doing it this way. It just takes longer.

My son and I actually did this 16 oz. olive oil flush because I had done
some with lesser amounts of olive oil in the past and not gotten any
results. It was very EFFECTIVE AND OFFENSIVE. As I said before, it turned
my son off to olive oil, entirely, even for putting little bits on his
salad. I just posted this recipe for general interest.

The Return of Pizza Lady!!

bluelightblog — Mon, 08 Oct 2007 15:53:06 +0000

Well, it was a week ago today that I was fighting off an intense
gall-bladder attack, and I am happy to say that i have had a great week. A
little bruised feeling for the first two days afterward, but fine other than
that.

I have been faithful to my walking regimen, and it is amazing how much
better that makes my whole body feel.

I returned to the same place for pizza tonight. (One son had a get together
with his basketball team last weekend, and another son had one with his team
tonight.) I had the exact same thing to eat; two pieces of hamburger pizza.
I feel wonderful!!

I really believe my plate-o-pasta, combined with my lack of exercise for two
weeks, contributed to my attack. I think that pasta is about as bad for me
personally as chocolate is. Fats have never set off an attack for me,
whereas lack of them has. Carbs, on the other hand, seem to cause problems.
Is this weird or what?

Anyway, I am celebrating one week pain-free. Kind of a bummer, having to
start again after 4 months pain-free, but I’ll take it.

About a third of the reason for my lack of pain has come from just listening
to and getting to know how my body responds to things, but the rest of my
success comes from things people have shared on this list. I am so glad I
found you!!!

From Crystal

bluelightblog — Thu, 04 Oct 2007 15:52:32 +0000

Hi Cynthia I think we all think that after the surgery, but the last suppers
were so much fun. In a way, I think the last suppers served a purpose. With
each meal, we were saying good-bye to the old way of life and I think it helped
us say good-bye helped us close the chapter. I did the last supper thing before
Steven’s surgery and later on, before my surgery, I felt no desire to go out and
do it again. I had already closed that chapter and moved on to another.

Re: Works for me/Beef Jerky

bluelightblog — Thu, 04 Oct 2007 07:52:29 +0000

Melt – I will be 3 months post tomorrow and just recently started eating beef
jerky. I eat it real slow and chew chew chew. I still have some problems with
meat and chicken so the jerky gives me more choices. Plus I have found it an
easy and portable way to get in protien…..not mention that I really like! I
do make sure I drink extra water the day I have jerky to help flush out the
sodium.

I’m back on the list!

bluelightblog — Wed, 03 Oct 2007 23:52:39 +0000

Hay there all,
Leslie K here. Well, I’m back!!!
Had my surgery on Aug. 11th. I can honestly say the worst part of the
entire thing has been the pain in my tail bone! It makes me want to scream!
It’s from sleeping in the recliner! I take 1/2 a pain pill at night so the
pain won’t keep me awake.
The wound (as my Dr. calles it) looks pretty good!!! I have a little
redness at the bottom and will see my Dr. on Friday. Have already e-mailed
him about the redness and he’s really not very concerned about it. I think
it may be some fluid. Might have to be opened a little to drain. The
incision is totally closed and is not as bad looking as I thought it was
gona be.
Surgery was 5 1/2 hours long. Had a pretty good size gallstone, so they
took the gallbladder!!! I was happy they did that. One less thing I have
to worry about during weight loss.
The drugs in the hospital worked pretty good. I only took pain pills
(for the incision) at home for the first 3 days. I really can say that I
thought the pain was gonna be alot worse than it was!!!
Had surgery on Tues. and got to go home on Sat. morning!!!
Had oxygen for about 5 hours after surgery because my asthma acted up
during the operation and while I was out they gave me some puffs from an
inhaler. That helped!!! I had to continue using the inhaler for the entire
hosptial stay and a couple of days when I got home.
Had ALOT of rib pain the first week after coming home. Dr. Vitello said
it was cause by the retracters (sp) used during the operation. That has
gotten alot better.
I am just over 3 weeks post-op and still can’t sleep in bed! If I could
sleep in bed the tailbone pain would be gone in just a few days. I try
every couple of days, and will keep doing so until I have success!!! OH
lord, I hope it’s soon!
My hubby is such a god send. He has taken such good care of me. I
can’t bend without some discomfort so he is still doing bathroom duty. He
has not once complained, not even when I wake him in the middle of the
night. I don’t know what I did to deserve a man like this but I hope I
continue doing it cause he’s really a keeper!!!
Have had no nausea or vomiting. I am drinking a minimum of 32 oz. of
water a day. I am currently eating a soft diet….eggs, cheese, tuna etc.
I really hope Dr. Vitello advances my diet on Friday. I really want to go
out to restaurants again. Once my diet is advanced I will have more
choices.
The last time I weighed was 3 weeks before surgery and at that point I
weighed 417 lbs. My hubby and I figure that by the time of surgery I
weighed about 425. Yes, I did enjoy those last 3 weeks VERY MUCH!!! My 10
day post-op weight was 407!!! I will weigh again this Friday. To be
honest, at this point the weight loss is really not that important to me. I
just want to be totally healed and feel like my old self again. I know that
in time the weight loss will become important. Right now, sleeping in my
own bed is alot more important to me.

Goal weight & clothing sizes

bluelightblog — Wed, 03 Oct 2007 15:52:45 +0000

I agree with you, Melty. My goal weight is 150, and I’m only 5′ 3-1/2. But I
know that when I go below that, I tend to take on a concentration-camp-victim
look. So everyone is really different. Those TV models are absolutely
anorexic at 5′ 10, 115 lbs or whatever—-totally unrealistic. I realized
long ago that sizes were nuts, anyway—buy cheap and you have to buy
big….buy expensive and you can usually buy much smaller——-I think it
has as much to do with economics as anything else. At my goal weight before,
I had clothes from a size 8 blouse (!) up to probably a 16 pants, and they
all fit just fine!

Speaking of Clothes..

bluelightblog — Wed, 03 Oct 2007 07:52:28 +0000

I forgot to mention I wore a dress to work today that I bought
two years ago after losing 70 lbs on Phen-fen……..

it was comfy, not even tight!! woo hoo

If I lose 5 more lbs I will be at my lowest weight in EONS!!
I can’t even remember the last time I was under 244 lbs…..

wow the anticipation!

Goal weight clothing sizes

bluelightblog — Tue, 02 Oct 2007 23:52:46 +0000

Here is a thought I thought that I would share……

I am 5’3 with my shoes on and I now weight 249 lbs (down 82 lbs)
I would love to be 115 lbs…….yes that is small……..but really
115 is just a NUMBER….

I have decided to not even have a goal size or weight……it is not
the number that makes the difference………it is HOW YOU FEEL
and LOOK at whatever size you are….

As far as clothes, it isnt like we have have to broadcast our size…and
after being obese which one of us has friends that are going to say
Oh my she had WLS but ONLY got to a size 12!!!

I mean honestly, if you have been 250 or 300 lbs are you doing to
be disappointed if you make it to 150 or 160 or even 170??

I think once we get there we will be so pleased…..and feeling so
fine that we will deem our WLS a success…